孤独，寂寞

一整个晚上，从傍晚4点起到晚上11点，我真的是完完全全没有说过任何东西。

我看着电脑，读着书，玩着乐器，吃着东西。

想要找个人来聊聊天，全部都是用Sms，不然就Msn。

我完全没有机会，能够发泄我现在的感受。

叫天不应，叫地不答。

就这样，度过了漫长的一个星期六。

你不在，当我最需要爱，你都不在。

-Sy-

Mood : Lonely

Trying to be Optimistic!

Sometimes, when you're down, the way to think is quite important.

If you're thinking positively, the case wont be worse like you think..

If you're thinking negatively, you're going to face another problem again, that's Yourself!

Sometimes, when there's no big deal, i can be emotional for a few hours, or even a few days.

How to say? I like to think more, before the thing happen, or after the thing happened.

Everything, What to do? that's me.

I tried to be happy today, but I was failed to do so.

A normal Sms msg without the thing i wish to see, Emo.

LOL! It sounds funny. I feel that too..

Alright, just to give myself encourages..

Life goes on easy on me...

Change the way we think.

Not only for our own good, it's also for a better relationship.

The call.

I just got a call from my orchestra.

Said that they're going to perform a song.

Named Dvorak Symphony number 7.

WTH??

My favorite song!!!

And, I MISSED IT!!

WHAT THE?

HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Sy-

Mood : =((((((((

What a moody day..

Woke up at 6.00 , just to tell my dear that i'm not going to school..

Feeling really unwell..

stomach pain, fever, vomit, flu, insomnia..

Haiz, It's really suffer...

When i was typing message to my dear, i fainted..

I got no idea.. What is happening?!???

On that time, there was only me in my house..

Once i woke up from faint, i realized that i didn't send the message out...

the message was still on my phone.. WTH?!??

Just to say sorry.. =(

Since yesterday, I felt that, this world has changed..

I tried to take bath, but I didn't have the energy to carry the shower and bath..

I tried to walk, from up stair to down stair, I felt down..

I tried to carry hot water to make a cup of Milo, i dropped the hot water and my legs, hands, were seriously injured..

I tried to ask for someone to take the bread for me, but there was nobody is going to answer me..

I tried to play violin, my hands cant even carry the violin properly..

I tried to sleep, but i cant even sleep well because i was facing Insomnia..

I tried to eat, I vomited instantly after i finished the bread..

Lonely T.T

-Sy-

Mood : =(((((((((((

Going or not going ?!?!?

Hmm, the orchestra i joined ask me to go Singapore and have a performance again..

The date is on this Saturday, night..

Going ? Not going ? Going ? Not going ? Going ? Not going ? Going ? Not going ?

Going ? Not going ? Going ? Not going ? Going ? Not going ? Going ? Not going ?

No comment ==

Bt i just scared something bad would happen to me..

Erm, had an experience before.. LOL!

Hope that wont happen to me again...

Someone tell me what to do?!?????

-Sy-

Mood : =)

OMG!!

Hmm, since last Friday onwards, I HAD INSOMNIA!!!!

For me, it's really my first time to try this.. lol!

I got no idea~~

Hmm, how to say?

Just conk on my bed there, thinking of other things? look at the time, passed second by second?

Checked every message on my phone.. around 200+ LOL!

I looked each of it. Haha..

It's really hard to look for the answer. ( How the insomnia comes to me? )

LOL! Maybe, in this world, only 1 person can tell me and cure this !@#$#!@ sickness. Hahaa..

Alright, just to say that, maybe my sickness will recover soon ? hoho..

I've no idea.. Just depends on when the person come and talk about it to me =)

-Sy-

Mood : NO IDEA

Remixed ( Two is better than one ) , just to express my heart feelings...

I remember what you wore for our first dating ,

You came into my life, I thought '' hey, you know? This could be something =) ''

Because everything you do and words you say,

You know it all will take my breath away..

And now, I'm left with nothing..

So maybe it's true!! That I can't live without you! I realized...

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life,

When you thought back it got it coming undone..

Anyway, Two, is better than one..

I remember every looks upon your face,

The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste to make me hard for breathing ~~

Because when I close my eyes and drift away,

I think of you, and everything is ok..

and finally, now, believing...

Miss you dear >.<

-Sy-

Mood : =(